My Lif3 , My Styl3 , My L0v3

LONG TIME DIDN'T OPEN MY BLOG ALREADY

2011-11-06T07:34:00.001-08:00

It's had been almost one year didn't open my blog already and got a lot of things happen between this 1 year..i met a new girlfriend and together with her about 9 months already, now I'm in labuan studying Uni....

After I came to Labuan a lot of things happen with my girlfriend because we argue and may be is distance problem, but i hope will get well soon...We are a very sweet couple at the beginning, is it every couple sweet at the beginning but will be sad at the end ?? I don't agree about this because is depends how we going through all the circumstances...I hope I can give the best to her...^^

I do say that I not treating her good before I came to Labuan... SO SORRY TO HER...

Because she always thought that I only got friends but not her...

I won't do it again because now i realize I love you the most...

Already got a good one, no need to find another better one..I promise I will take care of you forever...

A lot of thing happened to me Today~~

2011-05-14T10:27:00.000-07:00

Actually i did a lot of thing today , not only today i guess..I had been very busy since I got

this job until now..always late home, I didn't go work today because I had done my work

So, get a call from my Best Friend Yip Xiu for breakfast, after that went home and online plus

finishing my book.

More a while, I suddenly felt very desperate to play Bowling, I asked my friend whether want

to go or not..then she go with me and watch me play lo.Thank you.

Then went to E box and sing. The most thing that made me FRIGHTENED is she is a good singer,

walao eh....I heard she sing "LISTEN" by BEYONCE is so FXXKing nice....one word JENG ar..

Although got a happy hour but also got Sad thing happened to me..Is about me and my girlfriend,

we argued and beh song each other today, SIGH~~ she really think too much already, and i feel that lack of trust on me.So sad~~haix

but now we okay already lah..Wednesday go Taiping with her lah..enjoy har enjoy har with my friends also lah..

Last but not least, just now went to futsal with my Friends versus other peoples, we WON!!

they are so fucking LC..haha..should win them 99...but I got injury on my neck.and my necklace broke d...T.T...sad....

For me today is a good & bad day lah..^^slpz soon..

what happen??

2011-05-09T09:50:00.000-07:00

Why you just only know I'm always playing but didn't care about you?? May be I always chat with my frens and left you behind, so u think I'm not care you...I'm really sorry if I really did make u feel that way....but why can't you just think something good but not bad...is good for you also what~~~

IS NOT GOOD THAT ALWAYS THINK ABOUT BAD THING

Be Optimistic, Come on dear...

I hope everything can go smoothly, and no problems occur again...^^

Wao....Long time didn't open my blog already

2011-05-08T11:05:00.000-07:00

Don't know what I feel like writing blog again suddenly, I hope I will keep on writing and just write what I want and how I feel in my life..just like a process in my life, write out and share...^^

Have to go sleep already..so will write again next time when really got thing to write...

I'm sure got a lot..Nitex

TIRED~~~~~

2010-10-21T05:41:00.000-07:00

Oh My God......I'm so fucking tired now, I just came back from badminton , went home sweep and mop the floor because I can't stand the dirtiness... My mom not free to do that, so let me to do it... Until now I haven't take my dinner... Going to eat soon after I finish blogging ^^

Today I got no time to nap...SIGH~~ and everyday late to school

I just need some rest....please...but I enjoy with my girlfriend today, MCD AGAIN~~!!!! HAhahaha...

Anyway...I might not be a good Boyfriend, but I might be a good husband a 'Houseman'

-Anthony-

~Weird Feeling plus stress~ I hope she will understand~~Sorry

2010-10-19T02:01:00.000-07:00

I update my blog again........ Have to talk about my feeling, is just weird and can't describe it out.

I feel stress because of STPM examination coming. I talked about this again and again because not yet past but is still on the way, it makes me sick~~

Now is 5.08p.m , I just came back from MCD because have to fetch my girlfriend there to wait her car , plus she went to my house today for lunch but I know my daddy not really like about it because he not allow me to have a relationship when I'm still studying. SIGH~~

However I doesn't care about him , so he got nothing to say also but I saw his unhappy faces.

My girlfriend and I had been together about 3 month++. I know it is not too long for those who had a relationship more than 1 year but for me is a quite long already although the times had past too fast. I'm thinking like this way because may be I never had a last long relationship and everyone was guessing about how long will this relationship take between me and her. Although I always says that will be last long than what you all expected but actually I also can't confirm about this because who knows about the future..RIGHT??

No matter how I want to talk about the feeling from my heart and I think it is true, if I don't express out I scare I will feel very tension and annoy. What I think is sometimes I don't really like her attitude by being a very cute person in front of me because that's not what I wanted. I know I always criticize her will make her feel very sad but I'm sorry.. I didn't meant too~T.T

In addition, I felt that she got nothing to do with when she is free. I don't know why I'm not happy with it because I think everyone got their own personal thing to do.

However I don't know what happened to me, my love to her is just limited.I can't get back the feeling that I got before when I fall in love to another person. Although I tried my best to love her more but it's just can't increase. I know she very love me and I got uncountable of love from her but I don't know why I tried to appreciate you and care you more, the feeling of love will never increase anymore..I'm so sorry~~SIGH~~ I tried my best...but I still love you but not more than you...

I think is may be we didn't get close to each other first before we start. No matter how I am happy with you in this few months..Muakx!!!

Finally, same as what I had said before...LET'S EVERYTHING GO NATURALLY~~

Please be understanding

boring~~~

2010-10-09T07:02:00.001-07:00

Today I feel very tired because lack of sleep and I woke up late...So, after I wake up....I faster get ready and go to state library because I'm late...My friends meet me there about 10 a.m but I'm late about 3 hours..OH MY GOD~~!!! So sorry to (Xiao Ting & Cindy)

but I still going and went home about 4p.m plus I washed my car after I reached home..freaking tired...

Actually I want to go out, but seems no friends invite me to go plus don't want to waste money already...because my dad say me always go out...SIGH~~

I become poorer and poorer almost bankrupt....

Anyway...I feel a bit moody today but I don't know what happen..because of something that i thought just now?sigh...whatever it is, I just can accept the truth...try my best to do the best that I can..NEVER TRY NEVER KNOW~~~

Suddenly fall in love with my blog's song...(MAN MAN DENG)

My babie introduce to me yesterday and it is nice...So, I changed to this song and my slide show also changed....

I can tolerate for my life, but I can't tolerate you keep on making me feel sad...It's torturing.....

But we must be tough in our LIFE....if not we can't WIN the others..

~~This is my opinion~~

However I would like to talk about all the girls and boys.....Let me emphasize that not all the guys and girls are bad...and I know most of them are, as what you all thinking about..but why you all never think about the good one??may be you all not yet meet a good one so keep on blaming other girls or boys are bad...no more good girls and boys in this world...ARE YOU STUPID IF YOU THINK LIKE THAT??? Please ask yourself...

In addition, I want to talk about the thing we lost....I'm sure that everyone got lost their thing before but it's depends on what you have lost and HOW important is it....For me, i will forget about it if I really lost although you will feel sad on the first moment but later you will feel better...because TIME CAN PROVE EVERYTHING.....AND MAKE EVERYTHING BECOME A PAST TENSE...

For the person who are really stubborn and can't let go the past...Please think what I had said in here although it was a summary...

Update my blog again~~

2010-10-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

I'm back again.....actually I don't know what to write also, but just express my feeling here...This is the only way I can express my feeling except telling my best friend (Nelson), but anything happen I will tell him and he might be the first one who know about it...Anyway, thanks to Nelson always there for me and also the lunch for today...He treat me eat...^^

Anyway, sometimes I feel quite stress of thinking something nonsense and my exam...but still I'm feel so lazy to study....SIGH~~~ STPM make me sick~~

Almost three month I with my Mrs. Tae Yang and she treat me very good..Thanks Rexie Bie..lolz...Don't laugh about it please..I know is funny and I also know a lot of people think that I'm still playing with this kind of relationship, including myself....I just can't really understand myself..I feel that myself is weird until people also can't think how weird is me..

Now I feel a bit different about myself but I don't how to describe it by myself... Can I just stop thinking about it????

By the way, I'm trying to control myself.... I'm the only one who know what I'm suppose to do, but why I got those kind of imagination...HAHA.....GOD are you joking with me??? why suddenly will become like that?? Whatever la.......I will just let everything goes and flow NATURALLY~~~~

HeHeHeHe

Sometimes she is jealous about something...but I hope she will understand about me...Don't think so much and remember what I had said to her...Although I can't say something that you really want to hear or promise you anything but I still will try my best to give you the best...I love you....because I don't want to break my promise to the one that I really love....Sorry...Remember everyday is our happy day..DON'T SAD...DON'T CRY....DON'T MOODY...BUT BE HAPPY....

Solve every problems with A BIG SMILE~~~

This is how you all get a happy LIFE~~~!!!

Long time didn't update my blog already....

2010-09-16T08:53:00.000-07:00

Actually...Long time didn't write already also don't know what to write...Just want to share out how I feel this few months... I feel happy this few months but just sometimes feel a bit sad because of friendship problems..I don't really understand about friends, they are quite weird (I mean somebody really treat us differently but not all the friends) However, I don't want to care about this already, really make me sick about this because I care about friendship but seems that people are thinking differently about me...SO, LET IT BE. I can't stop their mind by thinking about WHO AM I?? What kind of person am I?? (In my mind appeared one word "WHATEVER")

I had saw a lot of things in this kind of world...

School reopen again...No longer is my STPM exam....I feel scare because of this exam, it will makes my life become shiny or gloomy.....So, I have to start working harder and harder..(hope I can & won't be lazy anymore)

Anyway, I just got a trip to KL with my friends, one of them is my best friend (yeong chyn)...that's was a happy trip and played crazily in the hotel room...Thanks for all of you who went to KL together, but most of us got fever...I just recovered and now still having flu...

We must have another plan for our coming BIG holiday....^^

Another thing I want to talk about is My girlfriend and I already two months together...Hope it will really last long, I love her so much because she really does care me a lot and more than I care about her...Thanks Zhu Lui Fei Po. ^&^...XD

Please remember what I had told you before ya....^^

Last but not least, I hope everything will be smooth as I think...And Friendship will always keep in my heart....Peace....I'm not that kind of person that you think...That's all I want to say...

Is time to sleep....Nitez...

New Life New Me

2010-06-30T01:39:00.000-07:00

I WANT TO START MY NEW LIFE AND BECOME A NEWBIE OF MYSELF....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FORGET ABOUT MY PASS...START MY NEW LIFE!!!!! YEAH~~~

2010-06-11T07:14:00.000-07:00

no emo again..but delete delete delete....bye to u..XD....the end~~^^

The Day I Stay Forever With You

2010-05-07T12:17:00.000-07:00

I'm sure all the people won't believe that, this sentence came out from my mouth.
I know what is the character am I...And I know that people are thinking about what I say is just
"CRAPPING" around...I really feel self-esteem..what can I do?but life still want to go on..No matter how, I already try my best to do the best and perfect of me..
And I'm sure that no people will believe me..Everyone just thought I'm playing around or playing fool..I admit about this..but sometimes I just want to have fun for relaxing my mind..Or may be sometimes I talk a lot, said a lot of foul words and always playing..but when I really serious to do something..I will pay attention on that thing..HERE TO TELL that I can be serious sometimes...Don't judge me before you really understand me deeply..

I really hope, I can say all this words to the one I love and the only one I love...My feelings came to me was very complicated until I can't really understand myself..I'm trying to be more confident and tough but seems like not working on me..WHY???
Not everyone can really stay forever with the one they love..because they have to love each other deeply but not only one person to love or beloved..there always have a fate and a faith for each other..Somehow have to be loyal to each other..Nowadays, boys are hard to do so..including myself..but I'm trying to change the fact become reality...

-Yew Chuan-

Am I really that suxxxx???

2010-03-21T02:34:00.000-07:00

Long time didn't update my blog already...So, I gonna update it now.....
Nowadays I feel something bad happened to me....Don't know why suddenly my friends around me become lesser and lesser...just like run away from me one by one..what's going on??am I that suck??or shit??
Someone can answer my question???I just want to know what is the first impression that I give it to you all??Someone can answer me honestly??Actually sometimes human don't make any sense when they say something to you..or promise u something..the thing is that prove it to you and show what they can do and what they can't do..Not just say only and proved the thing..IT'S STUPID if you do like this..
I face a lot of problems like this nowadays...I don't know what happened to the person..That person got problem?or me(myself) got problem??There got no any reason...AM I THAT LC??OR AM I THAT UGLY??MAKES YOUR EYES FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE??just tell me..I will accept it..And not doing stupid things around me and showing off anything to me...
I want a best friend...but I can say I got no best friend at all....since that day I realize what they are...I can guarantee and sure that I got no best friend...You know what is best friend??Let me tell you..best friend is...something that can share together and no secret between them at all..It's something like a brother or sister relation...when either one of them having a problem..they will willing to stand out and help..but it's not like (YOU DIE IS YOUR PROBLEM)..No such thing in a best friend relation..If got, that's mean the friendship cannot be continue.(Still got a lot of thing can be done if they are very care about their friendship)Think about it...Although they knew each other about a few years or more than ten years...they always say brother brother brother..But finally, this relation is blank..is empty...no brother at all...IT'S SUX.......
Why i say so??Please think by yourself properly...If didn't happened to me..I won't say so..
Am i really got problem?so I got no bestfriend??Let me tell you...if you treat me good..I won't treat you that bad....
This is reality world..Don't think of brother or bestfriend anymore...It's hard to get one...

"Make A Wish"

2010-02-07T02:51:00.000-08:00

It's been a long time I didn't update my blog already...Everytime I update my blog when I being "EMO" Everyone got their own wishes, and it has the chance to become true... Although I got some wishes, but it will never come true...The only way I can do is to accept the fact...

Tomorrow is my birthday...I made a wish yesterday when having my birthday celebration with my friends and (brother)...I hope it will become true..but most probably I think is "IMPOSSIBLE"
This wishes will never become true...No matter how hard I tried to get it...Finally will get nothing of it...Why???Why my life so meaningless??I just want to get something that I really hope to get it and yet I will try my best to keep it as long as I can...I think no one will know what is it....So, let it be..

I can't take a deep breath in my life...is sickening...I really hope I can get what I want..but need some time to prove everything...Wait For It

-My Life Is Not My Life-
-My Heart Is Not My Heart-
-My Body Is Not My Body-
-My Hand Is Not My Hand-
Everything Of Me Is Belong To You
I Hope Everything Will Be Okay....

One Person, One Love, One Heart

2010-01-14T07:16:00.000-08:00

Everyone got their own lover and she/he will only be the one for the person who love the most...
It's difficult to make a person to love you, and we will never know who is the one that love you the most..
I think I'm the one who don't know 'What is Love'...I don't know how to love a person, how to appreciate a person, and don't know how to care a person..But the only one thing that I know is I really love her...I never expect the person that I love will accept me or love me, but I want her to know that I can do anything for her if she need me to do so..I will just wait for her until she really reject me, but I will still loves her, care about her and protect her..This is my job and my responsibility...

*If she willing..I hope I can be the only one always inside her heart..If she care, I hope we can last long until the end of my life..If she want, I will always care and look for her..If she need, I will always be there for her..She lonely, I'll be there..She sad, I'll be there...

*If the day I realize that I got cancer, my nose bleeding and I will know how many days I left..On that moment, I will love you more and more..I will try all my best to give you the extremely best of me...Trust me and I will make you feel better..I will never let you down..I'm willing to hold your hand and walk together until the day I sleep in a coffin...

Love can't be describe because love is blind...I think I found the one that I really love the most, but I'm still waiting for her and I won't give up easily...My heart started melting because of her existence...'Days will go on, but my love to you will never change'

ONE PERSON=The Person That You Love The Most
ONE LOVE=The Love That You Really Care
ONE HEART=The Heart That You Really Want

"A Life Full Of Lies"

2010-01-08T07:02:00.000-08:00

"Fire Cannot Covered Up By Paper"
One day, they will know all the things...

Some people agree that A Life Full Of Lies but some will not..Why???
Perhaps may be they will never know and admit that they are lying to somebody...
I knew a lot of people always lie to their friends, including myself..but it's depend on what you lie to them..Sometimes don't be too exaggerate, your friends will feel sad also although they are not your lover, but they trust you...Remember this....

Everyone always tell lie to the people they love...Izit "TRUE"??
Perhaps it will be true, because they will tell a lie to their lover when they did something wrong...
But do you know your lover will sad and their heart will be pain when they know you are lying to them.They will feel that you can't be trusted anymore...And it will be "GAME OVER" for both of you...Perhaps you will never know their heart are in "PAIN"
They will never telling out that their heart feel pain because they don't want to show their sadness to the one they love...But i'm the one who always showing...Perhaps I really want them to know how I feel, it can ruin their days...Sorry for say that..I'm always showing my emoness and sadness...Sorry...

Some people tell lie to their lover because they don't want to lost them, but may be they not even love their lover anymore..It will become a "LIE"
Why must tell a lie like this??For??
I agree that sometimes have to tell a lie in front of them, but not always and not the important things...

I want to say: Tell lies can't solve any problems...may be a short period but not a long period..
However,it will become reality....What to do?Life have to go on...Someone lie me before...My heart really very pain...The pain make me can't even sleep or stand..You will know it, if the one you love lying to you..You will feel the pain..Why must lie???Haix.....

The one who always lie will not feel the pain, but the one who always get lie by other people will really feel the pain...
"LIES CAN MAKE PEOPLE IN PAIN AND FEEL SAD"

Performance's Day

2010-01-04T23:42:00.000-08:00

Lifestyle

*All this picture I took before go to Jusco perform...Hehe^^*

I think I'm already joined CB (City Ballet) gang...Lolz...There have a lot of fun and happiness,just like a "Happy Family"...Care for each other, dance together, work it out together..Almost everything also together..Lolz..I really enjoy being together with them, sometimes very funny also.

That fella took this picture when I'm playing my phone..

Big Family???Lolz

Kung-fu Fighter

We are performing for the Wedding Station (Fake Michael Jackson also there)

All this picture took after our performance..I can't upload my dance video...T.T..Sorry...
We're very enjoy during the whole performance..Hehe...
...Hope we can dance together again next time...Miss you all^^

*DANCE WITH PASSION*

"Goodbye To You & Say Goodbye To 2009"

2009-12-31T20:53:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a last day of Year 2009 and also the last day I being with her..I'm here to tell you all me and her broke up already..I guess everyone will be shocked when I tell them I'm already break up with her yesterday 31.12.2009~I used up a few days to think about whether I really want to take this step or not.Finally, I really make it my own decision.. Thanks for everything & Very Sorry to
you,but I appreciate.Let it become "OUR MEMORIES"

Sometimes, a lot of things happened between us and others won't know about it.At the begining I really thought that we can last long and I being sweet with her.But days by days, everything changed.It's been a few times that she said want a break up with me but at the end she can't make it and I can't make it also.That's why this question and our problems always keep in my mind.I felt stress and suffer about the past few days.It's pretty tough for me and I was emo on that time.It's hard to tell all the thing here because it's a long story.So, my decision already made "LET IT BE"~~perhaps both of us will be more "HAPPIER"

I agree that she really a good girlfriend and I admit I'm not really a good boyfriend.Perhaps she will get one more better than me later and I will wish for her always.Luckily, now both of us is still friend..I think will be keep in touch always~~Sorry for saying all those thing to her..But I'm really feel better and stressless after I made this decision, my whole body became more lighter because I released a lot of thing from my heart..~The End~

The last day of Year-2009.....I went for steamboat yesterday night with my friends.But I'm not really eating because I' already full.So, I just ate a little bit and spent RM25.80.........OMG!!! I just ate a little...That's too expensive but anywhere I really enjoy being together with my friends..After that we went to Big Cow's house(Daniel)..Playing,Gambling,Chatting & more..Until 3 something midnight only go home sleep.LOLZ...FINALLY I WANT TO SAY GOODBYE FOR EVERYTHING IN YEAR-2009

" Sometimes Pain,Sometimes Sad,Sometimes Happy,Sometimes Crazy "

Once u become a playboy..You always is....

2009-12-29T09:33:00.000-08:00

I know when the day u step into the path of playboy,you can't return anymore...I admit I am a playboy before since I was form three...but I really don't want to be a playboy anymore.That's why I have to change...but i know a lot of people won't believe that i will change or agree what i said.The only thing is I believe myself.why should I bother how people look at me???Try my best being myself..This is the truth...

Until now,no people will believe I'm not a playboy anymore...Sometimes i feel very sad when i heard it..but may be this is the fact..'ONCE U BECOME A PLAYBOY..YOU ALWAYS IS A PLAYBOY'...I'm trying to make people believe me..but it is hard to get trust on a playboy character...What can i do now???Everyone hate playboy....

Perhaps no one will know how I feel now...or no one will bother what do I feel...I can tell all of you now at here...I feel BAD...because I'm a playboy..and everyone look down at me...This is the fact and nothing can change it...except myself....but I really don't know what can I do...trying my best to let all the people believe me..but I think I failed..."NO ONE WILL REALLY UNDERSTAND ME" I'm just a playboy forever in their mind...

Accept the fact is the only way to make me feel better...Dare to accept will makes me feel better another day....What am i trying to say,is all about my LIFE.................................

"Today is the first day i write a blog"

2009-12-28T06:54:00.000-08:00

I'm new in here.My name is anthony tan yew chuan.nickname Bao....perhaps u will thinking why all people calling me "bao"...because i like it..simple and nice....My age=coming 19 loh...Now studying form six in SMI..Is hard to introduce myself....just having a complicated life...I also don't know what I want actually....

Today is the first day i write something on this blog...Because feeling sad and emo....I feel something bad of myself...I can't say out what is it..just totally out of mind....Suddenly becomes like this,wrote a lot of emo sentences in Facebook.Listening to emo song when i was emo-ing...I don't understand myself at all.My life was just meaningless.Perhaps it can be meaningful,but i didn't find how meaningful is it.

When i came back from jusco just now.I suddenly becomes like this.Can't imagine how emotional am I.Sorry to everyone that care about me.They know how emo am I and trying hard to comfort me but I think is useless because I'm too stubborn.Won't listen to people.No people can really understand me including myself.I'm totally lost....~~